I have walked down the path of sadness, sorrow, and guilt. During those times I can recall being alone, having no one to turn to and sitting there wondering when will all the hurt and pain go away. During these times, my faith waivers. As I pray, I lash out my anger. I question why he let this happen to me. If he is the God who so loved me as his own child, then why does he not come to comfort me and get rid of all the pain and suffering I have? I cry in my prayers. There are moments of silence as I try to gather my thoughts and wipe my tears.
Then I begin again, but this time I pray to glorify him because I know he is with me now, because I can sense the Holy Spirit is with me. I then again begin all over again with the same prayer but with a different tone and a different faith. A tone of calmness and a faith that he can hear me and answer my prayers. As I pray I thank him for being there when I went through all the hurt and pain. When I sat there, I thanked him for the Holy Spirit interceding and showing my holy father the anguish and suffering that I cannot express in words. I thanked him for letting me be a child of his.
I know he heard me. I know he is there. Pain, sadness, and all the horrible feelings are all a part of living but they are not alone. Joy, happiness, love and countless other positive feelings are also there.
And as I pray I know he will answer me. He will answer me because I have prayed these prayers many times. I know he will answer me because the Holy Spirit has moaned my agony before him. I know he will answer me in his time because his timing is always right and my time is always selfish.
I know he heard and answered me because I am still breathing and because I have been restored.
Today's devotion comes from:
1 John/Yauhaus 15:5
And if we know that he hears us - whatever we ask - we know that we have what we asked of him.
Thiab yog peb paub tias Vajtswv mloog peb rau thaum peb thov yam twg, peb kuj paub tias peb tau yam uas thov ntawm nws.